Plan B
I've been toying with a new idea. Something exhilarating, high risk and nerve-cracking. Something that most probably beats my Plan A hands down. Plan A: work full time at Stalford Learning Center from November to December and teach in a school from January 07 to July. That's Plan A; secure and boring. Now, for Plan B...
Plan B is to start up a business of my own. First of all, I need a business partner. I hope there is one good friend of mine who is passionate about teaching and nuturing lives and is daring enough to start our budding enterprise: a tuiton center. So, to everyone who is reading my blog, if you think you fit the bill, or have any interest at all, SMS me!!!
Cheers,
fuda =)
Nostalgia
Watching The Lake House today during nights' out, tears streamed down my cheeks as I watched the tear-jerker. The plot was fantastiscally laid out and incites the viewer to empathise with the lovers seperated by time, who faced one mammoth challenge to having a date - death.
Being an emotional person, I loved the movie, but there's just one problem: it has a happy ending. Katie, the female protagonist, manages to alter history. Sinister as it sounds, I was hoping that the male lead dies and I will leave the theatre teary-eyed and feeling despondent.
Somehow, perhaps I was just feeling emotional, but meeting Leon after the movie to book-in together, I felt a sense of nostalgia. I knew that even I too will soon be leaving the army, and I would miss the friendship that the 3 of us (plus Zhong Yuan who watched the movie with me) have with each other. Things will never be the same again. We will always meet, but we will never be the same again once we part from this common phase. Leon should be embarking on his conquest to establish his coffee shop empire, Zhong Yuan will and already has become a senior Specialist of the Singapore Armed Forces, and I, will be persuing my honors degree in accountancy in time to come.
There is no conclusion to this blog entry. And for one, I do enjoy sad tear-jerking endings. Perhaps this chapter of my life shall end in tears, as I like it better, for at least I know that the fond memories are for me to keep.
The Bottom Line
Usually, teenagers such as myself do not hang around orchard road alone. Last night, I went against all social norms and walked the streets of Orchard Road companionless. In fact, I went there from camp with Zhong Yuan and Min Hui tagged along. What annoyed me is the rattling about our company, people in our company and their working philosophy. Listening to them, I felt strongly opposed to their opinions about people, the way these people work and the way they think work should be done! Perhaps I should mention that these "
buggerating" views were from Min Hui, because Zhong Yuan is really nice and agreeable. Zhong Yuan's view of perpetually everyone is that "they are actually alright one". Obviously exasperated from the conversation, I sneaked off and went my way...
Often, my way is what I recognise as ethical and the way things are supposed to be -- prominently an idealist style of thinking. As such, I was agonised by Min Hui's view that he should act blur so that superiors would not harass him to do work. Being an "old bird" about to complete my National Service, I couldn't be bothered to challenge his opinions, I didn't want to care anymore. As its seems, he may be correct after all. Most people I work with, would act blur or resort to any other means so as to avoid being tasked to do additional work. Some even avoid performing their primary role. This is extremely detestable when these people include Regulars -- people who receive a much higher pay to perform the same role. On a brighter note, I would not need to work with these people for much longer. "Soon soon" I would console myself, "soon soon".
Very soon, I would not need to be doing all these things that I abhor. All these while, its been a pretentious lifestyle. Pretending to be fierce, to be
garung and all that rubbish. In no time, I would not need to raise my voice when some lazy brat falls in late. In no time, I would not need to shout out loud when my sparring partner slams me onto the mat during Advanced Closed Combat Training. In no time, I won't need to work with people who flout the very rules they were there to enforce. All these are meaningless! Work hard on a project. But who knows whether whoever succeeds you would be wise or would he be a fool? Or would he even bother continuing with it? Would it be just another entry in a colossal database of projects attempted?
The bottom line is this: ORD loh!! I cannot be more contented than to leave this place. I would not need to work with people who do not. I would not need to pretend to be fierce infront of my men. I do not need to work with people who flout the rules they are supposed to enforce. I would not need to work on meaningless projects and taskings... I would not.... I will move on with my life. Happily-ever-after. So it seems... Maybe people are all the same... are they not?
